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  Contents

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Warning

  Chapter 1: Lina

  Chapter 2: Lina

  Chapter 3: Thomas

  Chapter 4: Thomas

  Chapter 5: Lina

  Chapter 6: Lina

  Chapter 7: Thomas

  Chapter 8: Thomas

  Chapter 9: Lina

  Chapter 10: Lina

  Chapter 11: Lina

  Chapter 12: Thomas

  Chapter 13: Allie

  Chapter 14: Thomas

  Chapter 15: Allie

  Chapter 16: Lina

  Chapter 17: Lina

  Chapter 18: Thomas

  Chapter 19: Lina

  Chapter 20: Lina

  Chapter 21: Allie

  Chapter 22: Thomas

  Chapter 23: Lina

  Chapter 24: Lina

  Chapter 25: Thomas

  Chapter 26: Lina

  Epilogue

  Author's Note

  Copyright © 2018 Lilah E. Noir

  All rights reserved.

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  Written and published by: Lilah E. Noir

  Cover art: Lilah E. Noir

  Editing: Heather's Red Pen Services

  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

  No part of this book may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise, without the prior written permission of the author. You can find more information on http://lilahenoir.com.

  WARNING

  This story contains strong BDSM elements and explicit sexual scenes including male domination and female submission, spanking, humiliation, oral sex, anal play, punishment, discipline, heavy level of sadism and masochism. There is a subplot that involves female domination and male submission.There are are elements of dark erotica, as well as scenes of violence and mental abuse that some readers may find disturbing or triggering. If you find any of this offensive or objectionable you'd better not buy this book.

  Unorthodox Chemistry is also a love story with hardcore sex and heavy kink alongside with tender lovemaking, intense psychological situations, humor, second chances, twists and turns.

  This book is Part 2 of a trilogy and it can't be read as a standalone. You can get Book at http://mybook.to/UnorthodoxTherapy. If you dislike waiting between the separate parts but you are intrigued by the book and its plot you can subscribe at my mailing list for updates and news - here.

  All characters are over 18 years old.

  You're crazy.

  The waiter pushing the room service cart didn't raise his eyes to look at me. There was nothing suspicious about him--perfectly pressed shirt under his vest, stylized haircut, quiet footsteps, and professional indifference--an anonymous hotel employee minding his own business.

  So why was it that as soon as I ran into him my pulse sped up like crazy? The heavy hammer of anxiety was slamming against my chest as I stood in the middle of the hallway and clutched my purse so hard I scratched the glossy black leather. An invisible hand of horror was choking me and sinister scenarios rolled before my eyes.

  I didn't freak out and stop in place because of the man. It was the silver, bell-shaped cloche on his room service cart that threw me off balance. Any minute, that well-trained waiter would lift the shining lid and raise a gun straight at my face. The unreadable expression on his features would quickly shift to a look of cruel mockery with a touch of madness as he aimed the cold barrel at my chest.

  Fancy meeting you here, doll. Seth's got a message.

  In reality, the man simply cleared his throat and asked with top-notch fake concern, "Ma'am, are you okay? Do you need help?"

  That sentence broke the spell. I mumbled some excuse and hurried down the hallway to my suite. I must have looked like a maniac on drugs. The waiter had probably seen worse than some strange woman staring at the covered food on his cart with wide eyes. He'd have forgotten about our awkward encounter by the end of his shift.

  Sometimes, I had no idea what made the anxiety attacks worse. Was it the fear itself or the post factum embarrassment when I realized I'd been triggered over nothing? Freaking out because of some damned dish plate? Could it get any more pathetic?

  My therapist kept telling me I should stop feeling ashamed. Anyone in my place would have a hard time not feeling threatened. I should have forgiven myself and accepted I was a human being. It was natural to feel vulnerable. Only when I was free of any shame could I concentrate on moving on.

  A piece of cake, right?

  At least I was at a stage where I could act like a normal human being who could control herself in public. The conference after party at the hotel cocktail lounge had been bustling with activity. Luckily, I didn't have an attack there. At one point, I was just overwhelmed with too much social interaction. I needed my quiet time away from the crowds.

  I stood in front of the suite door, took a deep breath and looked in both directions. When the creaking wheels of the waiter's cart faded into the distance, I exhaled very slowly and ran fingers across my burning forehead. It was more likely an autosuggestion, but each time I had a scare episode I was left trembling. My body temperature was rising to boiling hot, as if I had a bad case of flu. A drink and some time in the bathtub would help.

  My instincts were urging me to hide as soon as possible.

  Not yet. The Procedure had to be followed.

  Another survival technique was to keep everything in place. Organized. Compartmentalized. A person with my issues didn't need additional attacks while searching for their keys in a messy purse. Not when all they wanted was to get inside, away from the outside world.

  I opened my purse and picked up the key card from my wallet. Right next to it was an innocent, even cute looking pepper spray bottle. It was pink, with a black heart drawn across it, and could easily be taken for a lipstick or a small perfume. When I bought it months ago, I was strongly tempted to keep it in the pocket of my suit jacket at all times so I could use it at the first sign of danger.

  It would've been awkward to explain to the hotel security why I sprayed the room service waiter because the cloche on his cart looked suspicious, though.

  The slick, plastic keycard felt reassuring against my clammy fingers. I put it in the slit of the lock before I started thinking of ways to use it as a weapon against a potential attacker. The door creaked open when I pushed it. One step back so I could turn on the flashlight on my smartphone. There was no way in hell I'd enter the suite knowing someone could be lurking in the dark corners.

  Once I was sure the perimeter was clear and there were no death traps, I turned the flashlight off, put my phone back in my purse, picked up the pepper spray and closed my hand around it. After a minute of breathing exercises, I took the keycard out of the door and stepped inside.

  I had rehearsed entering a dark room so many times I could repeat it in my sleep. My stomach was always in a knot, my throat dry. It would take me mere seconds to turn the lights on. In my mind, it lasted ages, just enough time for someone to leap and tackle me to the ground. I had to bite my tongue so I wouldn't scream.

  You're bat shit fucking crazy. They should lock you in a padded room and throw away the key.

  As soon as the lights were on, I slammed the door behind me and rested against it. I wished I could crumble to the ground and cry, rip my hair out, claw at my skin. Nobody would care and nobody would witness me completely falling apart.

  Not yet. My job was
far from finished. Entrance was just the first stage of the Procedure.

  I was still clutching the pepper spray. The entryway was safe but He could be hiding anywhere. If only I'd taken a smaller room I wouldn't have to inspect it so thoroughly.

  Small, careful steps. Don't drop your guard. Look in both directions, just like when you cross a busy street. Listen carefully.

  There was no chance of missing any kind of noise. Soundproof walls were always one of my top requirements when booking a hotel room, even before the accident. The place was so quiet I could hear my own hitched breathing. The plush carpet made even my careful steps deafening. If someone was waiting for me to relax and walk into the bathroom without checking it, they were unnaturally still.

  I sighed with temporary relief and got down to business. The first places to check were under the queen-sized bed and inside the closet. Everything on top of the workstation was exactly as I'd left it. The bottle of Scotch at the mini bar was in the same spot as last night. There were no signs of human presence on the terrace either.

  The bathroom was also clear of any danger, but it didn't stop me from squatting and scrutinizing the floor for any footprints.

  To an outsider it was ridiculous. I always complied with the Procedure or I wouldn't fall asleep at all. I'd toss and turn, plagued by the thought that someone had been inside, going through my things, touching my clothes, and stealing my underwear.

  The bottles of cosmetics by the bathtub were all aligned with two and a half inches between each one. The towels on the bathroom counter were folded and stacked on top of each other. My clothes were hanging in the closet, arranged by size and color. No discarded shoes. No missing panties.

  Why did I think someone might be stealing my undies, of all things? Seth Anderson would never be interested in lingerie or anything so intimate. A man like him would leave threatening notes or vandalize the room.

  Seth's not in here, you crazy bitch. He's in prison. That doesn't make you feel better, does it? You're fucking crazy. You're damaged goods and you always will be. That's why Thomas doesn't want you.

  I had to stop talking to myself. If my therapist knew, she'd likely decide I had schizophrenia on top of PTSD.

  Wouldn't she be correct?

  Okay, it was time to put the ball gag on the voice in my head. Some alcohol would help put it to sleep.

  I walked out of the bathroom and kicked my high heels off. It was tempting to leave them scattered on the ground, but that was against the Procedure. After I put the shoes away, I went to the mini bar to pour myself a drink.

  It'd been a rough day. I'd had to put all my efforts into performing the act of Lina Riley, entrepreneur, CEO, and badass tech queen. Finally, I was free to relax.

  I laughed bitterly while I watched the brilliant, amber liquid filling the tumbler.

  Free? Had I ever been free or capable of getting by without some kind of crutch?

  The warm, dry wind blew through my hair when I walked out onto the panoramic terrace. I rested on one of the deck chairs with the Scotch in hand, closed my eyes and took a sip of the strong drink. The warmth spreading through my body would be enough to help me fall asleep later. The fatigue was killing me but I rarely slept more than two or three hours per night.

  Freedom, I thought bitterly and had one more healthy gulp that nearly made me choke.

  I had been a slave to my parents' expectations. Then there were the cigarettes. They lured me into the illusion I was a rebel. When I was Thomas' obedient, masochistic pet, I thought I was free. In reality, I had only swapped one addiction for another. The moment he left, I nearly died on the inside. If it weren't for the Procedure, my endless lists of tasks, order, and rules, I would have fallen prey to another vice. I could be addicted to so much worse.

  Alcohol. Cocaine. Total sexual addiction bordering on nymphomania. Cutting.

  Keeping things perfectly aligned was relatively harmless next to all that. Still, it was another crutch.

  I pressed the glass to my forehead and stretched my legs. The pale moon above me cast its beams down the sheer black fabric of my stockings. The city lights were glimmering in the distance and added to the sensation of utter loneliness--a perfect detachment from the world.

  So why didn't I revel in being left alone?

  The conference today went well, much better than I had expected when I booked my flight to Vegas a month ago. Just a year earlier I was one of the speakers, making bold predictions and analysis of the future of the IT world, with my head in the clouds. No pun intended. Back then, I was just hoping to catch up and remind the world I wasn't dead. To my great relief, none of the professionals I talked to during the coffee breaks and the after party mentioned my absence or the shameful porn images my ex-lover had taken.

  Chaos Tech Solutions, my pride, and joy, had taken quite a harsh blow after the scandal. Some of our loyal clients and partners terminated their contracts with us. Their representatives and CEO's expressed deep regret over the way we were parting but they couldn't afford bad publicity. The competition was cutthroat and it made sense they'd want to move on to greener pastures. I was sure that I'd win them back eventually. Soon, I'd turn the tide and the company would get back on its feet.

  Meanwhile, all I could do was survive and hope for the best.

  The Scotch slowly began to relax my nerves. Its warmth was making me feel fuzzy on the inside. I didn't need another addiction so I rarely allowed myself more than a finger and a half.

  I sighed, got up and leaned against the rails, staring at the dim lights. If only I could share this moment with someone--one specific person who was out of reach.

  A distant memory made its way through the fog of the past. I attended a similar conference in Vegas many years ago. How did I ever forget about it?

  Back then, I was making a name for myself and my company. Events like this were perfect for networking and building the right connections in the industry. That was also the first time my PA came with me.

  Thomas Jett.

  I looked better with a PA at my beck and call, but there was another reason I brought him with me back then. It was a valuable experience for someone with his interests to attend that conference. Shortly after it, I decided to invest in his education and help him become a software developer. That was our first and last trip together.

  He was a shadow of the man he'd become, but he was far from the shy, stuttering young boy from his job interview. Thomas was still a little intimidated by me but he had grown much more assertive and his speech was smoother.

  We spent almost the entire trip from California talking. It wasn't a heart to heart conversation. Neither of us mentioned anything about our personal lives. We were two people in the same industry, albeit on different levels. He engaged me in discussion and showed me his passion for technology and its trends. It was good to know he was keeping up with our dynamic environment.

  Thomas even changed his appearance and behavior. He talked in a much deeper voice, probably in an attempt to look masculine. His glasses were different and he had a new hairstyle.

  I'd never guessed Thomas had been doing that for me. Perhaps I'd just been in denial. My mind was busy with more important tasks so his obvious attraction wasn't a top priority. All those details came crashing down on me years later when they no longer mattered.

  Was I just making them up or had it really happened just as I remembered it? Would my life have been different if I had noticed his desire?

  When we arrived at the hotel, Thomas had insisted on carrying my suitcase all the way to my room. I protested but he wasn't taking no for an answer. I gave in, as usual, and allowed him to take care of the heavy lifting. He said he'd been working out a lot and claimed it could be good exercise He gave me an awkward smile. I rolled my eyes.

  While I was opening the door, Thomas said he'd be just in the room next to mine. So if at any point I needed him, no matter how early or late, I could call him. His eyes had grown darker and more intense as he spoke those
words... or had they?

  I just gave him a warm smile and told him he was free to go out and have some fun if he wanted to. Still, I'd expect him to be ready at eight am the following morning.

  What would have happened if I had invited him to join me for a drink? How would he have behaved? Bold and dominant? Just happy his boss let him closer to her?

  Maybe he would have grown braver because of the alcohol. He'd have kissed me roughly, tied me to the bed and teased me until I begged him to fuck me. Would he have admitted his attraction and begged me for just one night with him? It was more likely he'd never have dared to say or do anything and simply went back to his room.

  Did it really matter? All those memories would fade away from my mind as soon as I left the following day. It could have been a great experience or the worst night of our lives.

  Today, all I had were yesterday's memories and ghosts of possibilities I had passed by.

  It had been six months, ten days, five hours and thirty minutes since the last time I'd seen Thomas.

  Where was he now? Was he thinking of me? Had he completely forgotten our unfortunate 'therapy'?

  Perhaps, right at that minute, Thomas was showing the dungeon to his next 'patient'.

  The thought of the woman who would replace me burned my sore wounds like a hot fire. I finished the Scotch in one gulp and walked inside to pour myself another one. My hands were shaking, and cold chills went through my body in spite of the warm air. I was shaking so badly I was about to spill the entire bottle on the floor so I gave up on getting a refill.

  I wanted him to be happy. If that meant I'd never be part of his life then so be it. Still, the thought of witnessing his happiness made my stomach churn.

  In the end, I wasn't as selfless as I wanted to be.

  Nausea overwhelmed me and I lay down on the bed, my arms folded against my stomach. It wasn't just jealousy that made me sick. I was exhausted and, sometimes, I was on the verge of fainting due to lack of sleep and proper food.

  Work was my salvation and a way to avoid going crazy. I'd spent the six months since our break up practically living in the office, even on the weekends. If I wasn't working, I passed the time writing long lists, planning my schedule for weeks ahead or brainstorming. I arranged, re-arranged and categorized everything in my loft. The thought of taking some time off to truly rest and relax was out of the question.